Escapes and the Ultimate White Girl Problem

February 23, 2011

My internet friend Jessica started Whiny Wednesdays where, in the interest of sanity, you have the opportunity to get some things off your chest. I’m jumping right in today because I made my proverbial bed this week and now I’m going to lie in it. But I want you to hear all about it first.

Last weekend I had an awesome adventure – one I’ll be blogging about on the food blog later today – that required a mini-road trip through the middle of nowhere. Actually, I don’t think we made it to the middle of nowhere because we weren’t on the road that long – more like the outskirts of nowhere – and our end destination was decidedly “somewhere”. But that’s not the point.

The point is just that we weren’t on the road very long before I looked around and saw…nothing. I mean, I could see pastures and a little bit of livestock and a few houses. But mostly, there was nothing.  

It didn’t help that at the end of our trip we were about 20 minutes away from one of my favorite places on Earth.

My life is so demanding lately all the time that all it takes is driving me out to somewhere I can’t see anything but grass to make me feel better. I’ve been saying this since I moved here over a year ago but saying it and doing something about it are vastly different things. Why don’t I do something about it? Because at this point it would be harder for me to stop than to just keep going. 

I could write a whole blog post on the changes I want to make in my life, and someday I will. But today I just want to whine about it.

I wrote about how I want to make time to write again - that hasn’t happened yet. All I really want to do is run away to this little cabin with my laptop and not come back for a month. Or until my next book is done.

Do you ever throw off your sleep schedule early in the week and spend the entire week exhausted? Because that’s where I am right now. I’ve snoozed for an hour two days in a row and I’m miserable. But I have lunch AND dinner plans today so I should be really excited, right?

Don’t get me wrong – I am. But I made this dinner reservation a week ago and have been “working” ever since to find people to go with. Obviously Mrs. Bdub was in right away – but we still had two more seats to fill and not a lot of time to do it in. And then I procrastinated until last night and want to be offended that people aren’t exactly lining up to make last minute plans.

Let’s just complicate this further by pointing out that I picked a fondue restaurant and it’s essential to find people who not only have the time to go but who also have the right fondue chemistry. It’s like one of those logic problems where you need a diagram just to figure out who was at the table wearing blue but not orange and arrived before Karen but after Jim.  But Karen and Jim arrived together.

Like I said. Ultimate White Girl Problem.

And on top of it all, I’m having nightmares about work and all the things I need to get done.

What are you whining about today? Are you in need of an escape too?