Starting Fresh

I’m dreading my weigh in on Wednesday, and here’s why:

I probably could have been really awesome and condensed that into a nifty collage for you, but I think this way you get the full weight of each of those choices. Remember when I said I had a plan? I never finished it, and then I lost it.

For the past two weeks I have eaten absolutely whatever I wanted, whenever I wanted. And while I did my best to push away the little voice that said “um, really?” because I didn’t want to be that girl who hated her way through the holidays, I couldn’t turn off the fact that my body wasn’t feeling awesome while I ate whatever I felt like. It also refused to work as hard as I wanted it to, which also made me feel bad.

But with the holidays behind me I’m really looking forward to a fresh start. I’m not making any resolutions this year – not in the classic sense. My one goal for this year is to earn my Louboutins.

To get to my goal weight, I have a few smaller goals I want to reach first. If you’ve been reading for a few months you’ll remember that I was in a competition at my gym. I ended up coming in second and lost 13 pounds. A new contest is starting this week and I plan to win this time. I’d really like to lose 15 pounds this time around and I’m pretty sure I can do it.

And of course there’s TWLC2 which ends in April. I haven’t been keeping up with the other competitors to see how they’re doing but I know that they’re working hard so I may already be out of the running. My goal for this one is just to finish it and know that I did my best.

To help me stick to my gym habits, I’ve signed up for Gympact - it’s a program where you make a pact to go to the gym a certain number of times a week. Each time you don’t go, you pay a fee (a minimum of $5). When you do go, you get paid from the money other people are losing by not going.   I set my pact small so I can just make sure I’m in the habit of checking in each time I go to the gym but once I know I’ll remember to check in I plan to up my pact by one day a month.

As far as food goes, I’m not really sure how to keep myself accountable. I have a food journal that my trainer checks every week and that seems to help – but I find that it doesn’t impact my decisions as much as it used to. Especially in the face of something delicious.

So it’s an ongoing process, and I guess that’s why this is such hard work. There’s no one right answer or formula to follow. A lot of this is trial and error. But I’m ready to work harder than I’ve ever worked before and get what I want most.

What are you looking forward to about 2012? Do you set resolutions?