And it’s not that my oh-so-perfect plans failed, but I tripped and spilled all that momentum and motivation onto something else: my job. I want to write a whole post about that glorious mess another time. The point is I quickly ran out of energy for 90% of everything else I wanted for this year.
I can’t say it’s been a good year. In fact it’s been a pretty terrible year. But I’m determined to do a good job of healing from the losses and move on. And speaking of moving on, it’s time for…
The Annual Move
I announced yesterday on Instagram that for this year’s move I’m moving to Charlotte, NC. This shouldn’t be news, I’ve been talking about doing this for more than a year now. This makes my 7th move in 6 years and I hope to move again shortly after I get there. I’m going to move in with my parents until I replace my job and find a house to buy (yep, that’s right). I’d be happier if I had more of a plan but I know it’s going to work out. I would love your prayers during this transition.
Every year I get the notice that it’s time to renew my domain name and it forces me to ask myself if I’m going to keep blogging or if I want to let it go. Every year I come to the same conclusion – one of these days, I want to start blogging again.
Blogging has always been a hobby for me, not something I made a profit from. I started it for my friends, opened that to my family, and then I found other bloggers and readers that liked reading my blog too. It was always about connecting. This move means I’m going to want more connection than ever so I hope I’ll have energy to blog again soon…but I can’t promise anything.
See the above comments about how it’s been a terrible year. Taking care of myself has been shamefully low on my priorities list and I’m really embarrassed about that. I only bring it up because I have a rule that if I can’t talk about something that means it’s out of control and I do not want to let this get out of control. I’ve spent most of the year in damage control mode and it shows. Again, I don’t have specific plan other than, “fix it,” so this could be the last you hear about this. Or not. “I don’t know” is quickly becoming my state of being.
And Everything Else…
Basically everything in my life is on hold while I get through this move. I’m overwhelmed because it’s a big life change and there are a lot of moving parts. But it’s a project and projects get finished, even if they sometimes take longer than we want. In the meantime, I’ve made myself a promise that I won’t make any commitments to anyone but myself until I stop feeling like life is something that’s happened to me. I want to write a post on that too but…you know.
Here’s hoping there’s a light at the end of this tunnel.